Galatians 5:22

But the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.
Galatians 5:22











Thursday, July 7, 2016

Shakedown in Faith

I had a major shakedown in faith. Almost lost it actually. I have never experienced anything like it before and I hope to never again. It was hard. It was ugly. It was lonely.

The aftermath is struggle. I'm struggling to climb back up to where my faith was. I am almost there. Baby steps. I am choosing not to share why this happened as it is too personal and was more that just one thing. That is usually the case, I'm thinking. Sometimes God does give us more than we can handle in that minute.

Like I said, I have never experienced this before. I've had small episodes of questioning, but NEVER anything like this. To have almost lost my faith is staggering. It is who I am. The almost loss was devastating. I can only imagine what it would have been like to really lose my faith.  I shudder to think of my life without God. I don't know how people do that.

I would appreciate your prayers.

I will try to remember this meme daily.


It makes me cry to read it now.

Gratitude
1. Faith
2. Mercy
3. Forgiveness

Phil 1:4
In all my prayers for all of you,
I always pray with joy.



Blessings,
Deborah

6 comments:

  1. You've got my prayers, Deborah. God loves you so much. I haven't heard that quote about a teacher being quiet during the test before...that's a good one. Thank you for linking with Grace and Truth last week.

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    1. Thank you so much for your prayers and encouragement, Dawn.
      Blessings.

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  2. Deborah - I know you often share from my facebook page (thank you!!) - but did you ever see my post about when I thought I was losing my faith? I went through a season where I thought I was...but God showed me something completely different. I wasn't losing it, not one bit. Please read it here and watch my video at the end. I am sure your heart will be encouraged. http://aimeeimbeau.com/2015/09/21/when-i-thought-i-lost-my-faith/

    And thank you for linking up on Grace and Truth. I think it was a different post of yours that was for the link-up, but I believe this is the post God intended for me to see so that I could encourage you.

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    1. Thank you, dearest Aimee for your prayers and encouragement. God moves in mysterious ways. I will go to your link now. Blessings.

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  3. praying for you! Been there myself!

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    1. Thank you so much for your prayers, Dee. Blessings.

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